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My “Baby” is 18!

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My dear, sweet Audrey,

I still remember when you were just a few weeks old like it was yesterday. I wanted you so much, we both did. Mommy and Daddy both cried the minute we saw you. So beautiful and strong even then! Men and women alike would come up anywhere we were and tell me and your daddy how beautiful you were! Of course we agreed!

They grow up too fast“, they said. Of course, I knew this was true but didn’t really KNOW exactly how fast the time would disappear.

And, then, somehow, as if by magic, the time really did disappear.

Gone are the days when

you first crawled,

you first climbed…. (Right out of your baby bed at 6mths, out of the playpen, onto the kitchen tableup the fireplace bricks, up and into the entertainment center all before you could walk. Climbing up Granny and Grandpa’s refrigerator)

you pulled yourself up,

took your first step

or said your first words;

our first day of our home school journey

your first adventure away from home

and so many other milestone moments in your life.

I have so many thing i think i want to say. However, at 18, I know you don’t really want to listen to me. But here a few words anyway!

Love yourself and don’t allow anyone to make you feel less of a person through their words or actions. You, and you alone, are in control of your emotions and well-being. By allowing someone else to taint your self-worth, you give them power over you.

Don’t be in a hurry to grow up. You are now officially an adult, that is nothing but a number. Being an adult is more than just a number it means being responsible. Responsible with every part of your life. There is plenty of time to move out and live on your own. Find a job, go to school! What ever you decide.

The next few years should be spent discovering who you are as a person, learning from the mistakes of the adults around you. There are many of us who came before you that have made plenty of mistakes, me included. Don’t make the same ones just because you want to be treated as an adult.

Think for your future not just for the now. The mistakes you make now may haunt you your whole life. 

Ask for advice, don’t be afraid to ask for help. Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness…instead, it shows your maturity that you know the depth of your limitations.

Above all else, remember you are loved. We do not want to see you fail, fall or get hurt. Your family is forever.

Follow your dreams. Never give up! Ever!

I’m filled with such joy, happiness and pride, but it also bittersweet! So I’m also filled with sadness that this journey with my young child  has ended, and we’re starting a new one together both now adult.

I love you so much!

Momma

~♥~

PS. If you follow my blog regularly, you know my daughter doesn’t want pictures of her self posted for all to see. Take my word for it, she stunning!

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Goodbye Mr. Spock

Yesterday we lost a great actor, Leonard Nemoy.

wpid-download.jpgA NASA astronaut on board the International SpaceStation tweeted a picture today from orbit of a ‘Vulvan’ hand salute as a tribute to actor Leonard Nimoy, known best for his ‘Star Trek’ role as ‘Mr. Spock.’

tribute from space After reading and watching some old interviews of Mr. Nimoy I was reminded of just what a wonder man he truly was. I loved watching him tell of him as a small child seeing the hand jester that would one day be his iconic Vulcan ‘live long and prosper’ jester as Mr. Spock and laugh at how so many copying it through history not knowing they were offering a ‘blessing

 wpid-download-1.jpg.jpegSo many wonderful Tweets…

“I loved him like a brother. We will all miss his humor, his talent, and his capacity to love.”
-William Shatner http://t.co/U8ZN98tVYp

— William Shatner (@WilliamShatner) February 27, 2015

This, too pic.twitter.com/6ycS6YMF0V

— Joss Whedon (@josswhedon) February 27, 2015

He created a role that nobody else could play. Multitalented writer,actor,director. A terrific&sweet man. RIP Leonard Nimoy #Spock #StarTrek

— Larry King (@kingsthings) February 27, 2015

Leonard Nimoy was more than Mr. Spock. But Mr. Spock is his gift to us all. Live long and prosper. HANX.

— Tom Hanks (@tomhanks) February 27, 2015

RIP, Mr. Nimoy.
You really did live long and prosper, and we were all the richer for it.

— Jeri Ryan (@JeriLRyan) February 27, 2015

Just to list a few!

wpid-images.jpg Leonard Nimoy was known for so many more roles than just Spock (you can see them listed here), as a director (listed here) and as a producer (listed here). Goodbye Mr. Nimoy, you will be truly missed.

In the famous words of James T. Kirk:

“We are assembled here today to pay final respects to our honored dead. And yet it should be noted that in the midst of our sorrow, this death takes place in the shadow of new life, the sunrise of a new world; a world that our beloved comrade gave his life to protect and nourish. He did not feel this sacrifice a vain or empty one, and we will not debate his profound wisdom at these proceedings. Of my friend, I can only say this: of all the souls I have encountered in my travels, his was the most… human.” Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan (1982)

The Sports World Lost a Great Man Today

Stuart Scott, longtime anchor at ESPN.
Stuart Scott, longtime anchor at ESPN.

The sports world woke this morning to the news that longtime anchor at ESPN, Stuart Scott, had died Sunday morning at the age of 49. He had been courageously battling cancer since 2007.Scott talked about his fight with cancer in a moving speech at the 2014 ESPYs.

Scott is survived by his two daughters, Taelor, 19, and Sydni, 15; his parents, O. Ray and Jacqueline Scott; and his three siblings Stephen Scott, Synthia Kearney, Susan Scott and their families. His girlfriend, Kristin Spodobalski, was with Stuart and cared for him every step of the way and along with support from his loving family, close friends iand colleagues, he went through several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation and clinical trials to stay strong and ward off cancer for as long as humanly possible.

I enjoyed watching Stuart work very much. He made stats and recaps fun! Thanks Stuart Scott! You will be greatly missed.

My thoughts and prayers go out to his family, friends and coworkers.

I Am Heart Broken

Eleven years ago a tiny black stray kitten joined our family! We found him next door to our church at the time! Audrey had asked a couple of times if we could take him home. On this specific day Rudy brought him inside to me and said “Don’t sit him down, he’s going with us!”

We were all excited, but especially Audrey! She held him most of the 40 min. ride home! With a discussion on a names minimal, Audrey came up with “Oliver” it seems appropriate! So with that, Oliver became our next fur baby!

Once home our four dogs and two cats had to get use to the new little family member! Within just a couple days they all loved the him! Oliver was right at home!

During the years since, our fur baby numbers have fluctuated. A year later we added another stray kitten, Patch. We’ve lost many during those eleven years too! Each one breaking our hearts. We never completely get over that loss but the sharp edges seem to dull just a little. At least until it happens again!

After countless joy, 1000’s of adorable pictures, one being a 4 or 5 year old Audrey pushing Oliver around in her baby stroller, many laughs and hugs. Oliver our sweet little “baby” has died. 

I couldn’t bring myself to talk before now, and even now it’s really unbearable but therapeutic!

Over the past few years Oliver has been in and out of the veterinary hospital with bladder and urinary tract problems. He has always done very well to treatments after just a few days and came home fine ready to go. This past Monday Rudy took Oliver to the vet, thinking it was just another reoccurrence. Wrong Tuesday afternoon after talking with the doctor, Rudy calls me at my parents with the horrible news.

Oliver’s kidney’s were failing and his temp. was low. He wasn’t going to live long. Instantly in tears I have to now go tell Audrey that her “baby” was dieing. Never something you want to tell someone, but especially not your dear sweet daughter.

She wanted to leave immediately to go see him and say our goodbyes. We went home to get Rudy and then on to the vets.

I can’t and won’t go into the details of our last time with Oliver. To hard to talk about and to precious to share. And now since Tues. afternoon Rudy, Audrey and I have been crying and remembering our little Oliver!

If you have ever had pets that are actually members of your family you know the great loss that is felt.

Thanks for letting me share mybroken heart! I didn’t want to ever make any of my readers sad, but I had to share to help my heart!

I would appreciate your prayers of comfort, Thank you! God bless!

Thirteen Years Ago!

MrRuffles_911 Where were you when you heard the news?